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The Day that I stopped being bitter was this day.
When I grew up my parents did not have any churches to go to that would let us Swindells in. It started before I was born out of the six kids robin was the only one born. My mother and father were just starting out as newlyweds and then robin was born. Both my parents were raised up in a church so when they moved to sterlin Mass they fought that they well find a church. In which the fought was the proper was to go, It was hard for my mother to go back to church because when my mom was young her family was a large family 4 boys and 3 girls. there Daddy went to church and learned alot of BAD things in which he fallowed them to the tee, I am not talking about disapline no it was a larger and to some people unforgiven,
My Grandfather was taught that if you loved your children you would have sex with each and every one, boys and girls and the prist who had said this was Sitrol, one thring about him was before he started to working at this church he was a priest and he did the same thing there to congrulation he would take all the ladies and the nuns would have sex with the men. He also did it to my mother and here sisters and maybe there brother.
Sitrol had a plan that he was supposed to have sex with everyone so there will be Gods children born. There was alot of children that were at the church.
My Aunt got pregant from him and she was only 15-16. this is where my gradfather got the idea and he scared the parents that if they did not have sex with all there children they would not go to Heaven.
My mom heard her father have sex with her brothers they were screamming it hurts it hurts, then it would be her sisters and there screams were even loulder and then it was moms turn to have sex with her father.
It happened for along time, then one day her father knew a guy who needed someone to have sex with my grandfather told my mom to sleep with this guy
My mom did not like it at all she rather have her dad have sex with her atleast she knew him. This went on for years then my mom could not take her bothers and sister screams anymore so she turned her dad to the police
In court she had to face her dad and say yes he is the one who raped me over and over and also her sister and brothers.
Before we moved to Clinton Mass my parents went to church all the time. then my sister Robin the oldest was born. The minister of her church wanted to changed this churh into the way the catolic did things like haveing sex with every in the congration no matter if they are married.
One night while my mother was home alone taking care of Robin she got a nock on the door and fould out it was pastor Sitrol, she let him in not thinking that he wanted to have sex with her and his excuse was we need boys to be born to the church so she asked my mother if she would have sex with her to make a boy. My mother was very angree so she make an excuse to go to the door acted like someone was there for him and told him someone was at the door for him. Pastor went to the door and then my mother kicked in the butt and he fell down the stairs.
Sitrol went home and asked told his wife about what my mother did to him and she went with him to my mother house angry at my mother, my mother told her that he tryed to suduce her so they can have a boy together.
Ever since that day when my mom made a stand against all the rape that is going on in some churchs. After that not one church in Mass would allow all Swindells to attend church because we were scorned.
That lasted for almost 20. so we couldn't go to church at all growing up but my mother taught us everything we needed to know about Jesus and God
I grew up having a close realionshep with Jesus because I was born very sick and couldn't do as much as other kids, but me ever thinking about going to church again no I was really angry at the churchs and became bitter.
One day that changed when Mom and Dad went looking a good family church in which they chosed a Baptist church. They went first to see how the church was and they liked it and tood my youngest sister there and then I decided to go, everything changed to me When Pastor Dave was speaking he was asking if there is anyone who would love to give you life to Jesus just raise you hand. I did and I felt very warm inside and tht night I asked Jesus into my heart and repented this was December 1992. I felt at peace and complete, I could not get enough books to read fast enough. and then Feb 21 1993 I was Baptised.
Well this is my story to start but now I have alot more to share. I hope I can find freinds that feel the same way about Jesus.
God Bless
Nancy Jane
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